Marital A & K
I am you dragging halo
Gerry (44), East Mids, willing to relocate asked me about a previous message I put on here, about experiences I had earlier in my life. I'm not sure what you want clarifying, but ... well, when in public the only thing bringing me back to position is the threat of things getting much worse. I tend to focus on that kind of endurance, and only afterwards do I feel a huge sense of relief that it’s over. I do enjoy the fact that I will soon be in private. I’m only glad that in doing so I openly find this reality romantic. And I cannot remember when I didn't feel the same. Here's an example ... the other day I said that I sounded hardly at all, even down the telephone. I shut my eyes, because I knew I couldn't be seen. That felt good. In my mind's eye I was moving through my pain. I appreciated the fact I could do it. Hope that's ok for you. Troy
I crave confusion. My dichotomy charts the history of my own labelling as a confuser. Charting this in turn belies the facts as they are generally understood and constituted, towards positions which are at once both mutually exclusive and intrinsic to the differentials I tend to favour. Meanings remain simple. Words, though varied, amount to the same thing. I made this situation, and I am proud of it. I use names which have no power, and I create causes from their weakness and lack of continuity.
This doesn’t help people because it isn't meant to.
I come with overwhelming questions. My intention, however, is not to take away your right to respond or, indeed, to ask your own of me, or of anyone else via me. I am not making moves upon what we can naturally consider to be inalienable and consensual. I’m no cod confiner; nor am I theorising convenient generalities, to be unfurled later as needed, like dialectical deathtraps, exploding within friends. In listening to me, you are not exclusively connecting my external, demonstrable preferences with your internal desires. You are, though, prompted to make little problems into big ones in order to seem complex and undenied; in order, that is, to appear to be broken, optional, probable. More often than not, we don’t even realise such crimes of territory.