murmurists

J.G. Power-Ballard, Cafe Abdab, January 2012

2012-01-07T23:59:00.001Z

item #0111

2011-12-23T00:32:00.002Z

Maybe you can see where I’m headed... Maybe I believe that to be a fact, even without the evidence I've requested. Maybe that means to power, that control of lies, is, as you say, like me, a mutual index along some vague arm of aggregate domination. I can see you are holding sway over what may seem benign, and that they - your enemies - math you as an example of the sterile markets they feed us for. But here's my question in light of all that: what decides it wants to?

Martin

Spidey Agutter 'Omlette, Eggs & C.'

2011-08-31T23:06:00.000Z

J.G. Power-Ballard, Cafe Abdab, City of Dis, Falkland Islands, 2011

2011-08-29T21:27:00.000Z

Now plays drums for Question Time.

Id Vicious & Jape Clogger, Cafe Abdab, 2011

2011-08-25T21:16:00.000Z

Jape Clogger, Cafe Abdab, 2011

2011-06-18T16:13:00.000Z

J.G. Power-Ballard, Cafe Abdab, 2011

2011-06-02T20:26:00.000Z

Id Vicious & Eno-Obscene-O, Cafe Abdab, 2011

2011-06-02T20:24:00.000Z

Lydon leaves Led Zeppelin

2011-06-02T20:08:00.000Z

item #0066

2011-04-26T08:29:00.002Z

re. your last message. your lies, it seems, are unlimited and my usage in them seems as boundless. quite obviously you are keen to focus your degraded logic, like a missile, upon my greater experience of the kind of life you say you wish to live. i say again: i do not believe you. you keep coming back, yet you will find no satisfaction in anything i say to your questions, and i will not answer them. after this message i will block you, and i will leave unopened all the other messages you send via your numerous fake profiles and proxy addresses. this really is a matter for authority, and if you push this further i will scream your house down. i will say this ... everything is otherwise, nothing is driven by any selfless majority or longing to prepare unconditional extensions from your supposed freewill. i may range too narrowly, and i know i am kept unclad in the animal confines of the exploited, but i equally know confidence is neither beloved nor useful. you are not fearless as you assume - neither are you feared. you simply have your three names.

syri r

trope trope

2011-04-06T16:49:00.000Z

item #8439

2011-01-31T00:50:00.000Z

suggestive, bombshell thereafter, via properties. Who succeeds by replacing?

Generate (bi, 34, north east)

item #0121

2011-01-31T00:38:00.001Z

She goes forwards. I love the dynamic. I love the learning curve.

For selected friends...

Francis Allemagne

item #1199

2011-01-31T00:27:00.000Z

I’ve been thinking about spending hours getting to and from the only difference to actually work as much as I know it can. The greater the amount of work I become, the more swimming in front of my eyes.Ok, this afternoon I just couldn’t focus on my conscientiousness, out into some sort of stress. One is stressed?

Cabbag x

item #0089

2011-01-16T17:39:00.002Z

I just managed to perfect some small triumph after all the others. So, the sun shines and I want more. The house in great, by the way, with its minor, shuddering blasts running through me. I could offer a more simple response, but you know me. Maybe I believe feelings generate the man.

Zion de Janeiro (44, Mids)

item #8742

2011-01-13T22:41:00.000Z

Impossible to interact with any other meaningful array of definitions at present, as I've expressed in other postings. My story is one of, well, entanglement, perhaps co-dependency, more exactly, though, as I feel, it is the product of inconsiderations regarding my own lack of isolation. Basically, others here treat me badly because of this - because they believe they understand my condition.

fhoton

item #6749

2010-12-14T23:56:00.000Z

There are various kinds of uncertainty. All of them have solutions.

Julia x

item #0118

2010-11-17T01:33:00.000Z

Warning's analysis contains everyone who has praised doubt itself. I walked out of the overwhelming confusion, over an ending, in order to better interpret true meaning. Many references allude me. I favour some kind of mutual exodus, something useful and obvious. One scene happens at night, in a hail of accusations. I'm laughing as I predict what they might be. But, before I start, I am written on it, as promptly as any audience defined by its trivia. In sections, I fill you in... Bish / Bosh / .com ... all for some hot-line, of diamonds, in some building.

I'm visible again.

Karen from E. Africa x

item #0996

2010-11-04T10:04:00.001Z

I did contain myself. I have extended, but hatefully smaller. I used due fact throughout. But, I was not naked, nor playing with courtesy. He loves me. I love him back. All night, I am grazing the table and chatting. Earlier, but for no good reason, I suggested some privacy. Helena x

item #8383

2010-10-15T09:33:00.001Z

just as I expected. agencies undertook to keep eyes open on me. i had phoned for this morning and it happened exactly like that. good money after bad. curse the darkness. but it worked out. at war now. sleepwalking.

item #0049

2010-09-03T19:53:00.000Z

Dreg seeks long-lost worst parent to complete dysfunction. I'm full of nasty ppl, and want to inappropriate more ill-preparation or inculation in 'a world like this'. So, all you familials... home in on me, fill your sexual absolutions, as obvious. All nine, and six six six.

Tim

item #0907

2010-08-29T23:15:00.000Z

People just don’t understand the consequences of their own bad behaviour. I've now decided to put myself amongst those who will simply cost you money. I'm here to point out where you are going wrong. I'm here to lead you towards the criminal convictions you've avoided for years. Now that that's straightened out - and with each day that passes, it gets clearer in my own mind - on Saturday, I intend to

alfraid

item #8833

2010-08-24T01:23:00.001Z

I am not despondent nor am I happy. My prospects may be inter*stitual*, and I may have to take one up within those opportunities, but being renewed understands forms of excuse on the mountain tops, otherwise cover fails. I'm a fish out of wat*er. Engine gets me rectified. This means l can wait and see whether or even whether I decide to junk on the road and drive away.

Charles

item #8927

2010-08-02T00:22:00.000Z

Their new meaning, thus translatedכבו , frequenc. throughout personal opinion... (or semantic)..., слава православие (0). is * i see.

item #2020

2010-07-30T21:09:00.000Z

Stop leaving your 'anonymous' threats here. I know who you are, I traced your IP. When I wait, I wait for myself, OK? Anymore and this is what you'll need to know: I mentioned a thousand times that I was going to worm my way over his right hand or refrain from allowing myself to fix upon his other bare hand. A few minutes is all I ever want. There's never any problem, and I'm repeated to his satisfaction - shoulders, back, thighs. You know. Eventually, my reaction is not when but whenever.

Iris

item #1034

2010-07-20T21:44:00.000Z

I am only here to ignore you.

Angela x

item #0066

2010-07-11T16:24:00.000Z

About certain recurring trappings: It seems I am some repeater. It seems that I might be meted in that way for some people. It seems, that is, that I am an aspect of whatever is deemed specific to some relationship hitherto unencountered and undescribed. They need me. That much is clear to me. They get it - it? - they get it whilst we are all kneeling on the floor. Back of the neck. It happens. Then it ceases to happen. Certainty cannot precisely withstand such happenings, because mentation itself humiliates every moment of every hour of every day. Because of that, I may never tire of you, you may never tire of me. We will continue - to and fro, up and down, spinning... I won’t resurface because of you. So, please don't ask me to.

Ellen

aporia

2010-07-11T15:35:00.000Z

loved and disjointed, i vent / cohere
verbatim that vivid image
(...all good examples from her reaction)
of course it is too late for me

vow

item #1919

2010-06-17T10:06:00.000Z

After our conversation, I met with a couple of friends, and confided in one of them. She agreed with you, thinking that I'm becoming more and more drawn in by the idea of casual encounters with guys who just want to leech off my uncertainties. The same girlfriend previously told me that I like to be overwhelmed by replies of that kind, that it makes me feel responded to. I don't know - maybe.

item #0400

2010-06-17T09:58:00.000Z

I have a compulsive wish to take advantage of groups or couples and stop them getting pregnant. I cannot restrict my activity to one person. M x

item #7875

2010-06-17T09:53:00.000Z

fine, i hit the mattress, had good feeling, then a night sleep, woke up between 4 and 5 with the temperature and the smear against me. someone really occasionally gets me. gemma

item #5588

2010-06-10T07:30:00.000Z

I’m your duration. That wasn’t why we fell in love in the first place, but it's an extra for us. One reason is this: I promised you I wouldn’t fuck other men. Yada yada. Our agreement is a list of decisions why I cannot leave. Blah blah. Slap.

Kim x

item #1352

2010-06-09T23:58:00.002Z

talk is government. deliver me please. i am ditto'd via some aux election performance. my disillusionment is meant to mine complex tax laws to distraction. and whether you see this as some kind of necessary evil or merely faintly symbolic of implementations you prefer not to address or understand, you are preserving the economy of these culprits of expenditure. i piss your infrastructure out of me. analyse your intake, meatsheet.

lotus

item #7894

2010-06-09T01:49:00.002Z

After I decided to lie like hell I could feel myself start to viciously scratch my head with massive adrenaline in all directions. The pressure... Should I try to claim this didn't happen?

item #5151

2010-06-08T20:58:00.002Z

I have expectations of you derived from your authorities and self-promotion - now roundly defeated and ceded wholesale to my own causes. My prime intention is to deliver you to interested professionals for the processes of debate. But I am as yet undecided whether to treat you badly now in some simplistic vengeful fashion or more elaborately later as part of some ever more consistent crusade against you as a type. In either case I will come back time & time again, renewed and smiling. I'm close enough to what you are to have my own views you see. Regardless, two things are always viable: your plentiful suffering and my mechanical reiteration of your problems. With me, even empathy goes in the opposite direction. Christian

item #6025

2010-06-06T15:39:00.003Z

I self custom the hard blows of bikinimen, or any other loser of sperm. I like my mouths to be filmed for days.

Elli

item #0053

2010-06-02T00:17:00.002Z

Relayed this to follow, via synecdoche, as if re. figuration, along re. metonym, as re. distance. I type ... conceptual substitution, as if restricted to an uncertain interpretation of συνεκδοχή. No, no /no. Commonality+1 ... a single body part, as the eyes. Thus: see. Characterisation +1... a coherent self. Thus: Be. My beloved is often described part by part. Thus: Become. So becoming, yes.

Andrew Notion

item #4929

2010-05-29T20:29:00.003Z

I am under her and my name is descriptive of what am I doing here. I don't need this site for any other woman. I have been deceived and maybe need revenge.

item #2900

2010-05-28T23:13:00.003Z

Today l have to terminate a recruit. I have to find someone willing to take over the his function in order to minimise the disruption to corporate politics. I have an inside view on how small manipulations operate in the exercise of power. I don’t mind such terminations, as the scenario itself has caught my imagination. In a few minutes I will make the call.

Gravy

item #6217

2010-05-25T11:58:00.002Z

It continues... Electrician disconnects my hard wires till gas takes effect. I am made exactly in reverse for a whole afternoon, until he discovers why. Installer regulates the right amount of simple answers, until I am too late to save my Replacement. Outside is going to hell. Then Friday I am informed upon and duly listed. The same day I am supplied with the box and its showroom, and told it is important to try myself out. I aim to do that tomorrow if I am able.

item #0707

2010-05-18T21:33:00.001Z

how people squeeze into china, money opportunity is good in terms of sleep at night, as you only use places as your village, but i would also need to enjoy simple money and all its problems and desires, except the tax man is due.

item #4088

2010-05-18T21:17:00.002Z

The first thing you need to know about me is that I remember how strange it was to first look upon the developmental cognitive process as a necessary process, which is both humane and psychic in its mildest forms, but, via dissociation or via overt inclusion, can be some kind of daydream, within which the daydreamer lives as if inside a book, or a motion-picture, or some other site of concentration, where the body's signals become wholly orientated towards a hunger for imagination at all costs, or within which any hitherto accepted capabilities cease to make connections, or within which thought itself is replaced, a fortiori, by an undeveloped intuition.

Multiple x

aporia

2010-05-18T20:53:00.001Z

To become.

Is debatable.

item #0096

2010-05-18T20:39:00.002Z

I'll replay my day, ca.

Gyromanc circumferenc perimeter. I am with the letters of the alphabet. I am inferred across a circle’s edge, intelligible to the now thronging Intervened.

Manteia

item #0090

2010-05-18T20:15:00.002Z

My O word near, ambling, raw. As I type, pawn struggles on the end of my tether. She knows I'm with the refiners and that we facet these exceptional Cinderellas one-by-one. I write here in that regard, attentive to the sticks of skin toiling outside in their marinade of money. Their vitality is unceasing and surrounding, as they learn the hard way at their own insistence.

item #0110

2010-05-17T18:39:00.002Z

My unhelpful Anon, you lie still above, podia of authority, accord and vision. Figuration becomes you, my iteration. I am, in spite of you. I am claiming, to will everything towards some inestimable common denominator. Drench me with your infections.

It is negativity.

Kate

item #2022

2010-05-13T09:38:00.003Z

We are some eviscerated right-wing, of unGeni, histo-pampered, insulated from the world and its problems. We accurate as flesh crawl scum from money. We have and will always have, shoving it in faces. Poor prepare... we despise. So delicious. You are such a turn on.

Wall Planner

item #7625

2010-05-12T23:21:00.002Z

i look unshaped in little runts of disobedience. i instantly want it all to have personality. responses are conversation with me. exchanges don't connect but i'm always happy to talk your questions into something more aggressive. sometimes in it i finalise protection. i'm not possessive though. i only demand.

cabbage white

item #0309

2010-05-09T15:23:00.003Z

Thoughts after a week or so here... and after many critical messages. I have energy only for the broadest of points and counter-argument, sorry.

I suppose, in your terms, I am somewhat dubious of character; as I tend to believe less in the efficacy of commitment and formal involvement; preferring, in contrast, more profane relations predicated upon, say, spirited inappropriation and concerned misrememberings. These define my own collection, at any rate; and fortune favours me either way. That, really, is all I know. Meanwhile, there is your world of disrepair and intractable irreplacement: withering approximations, imprecisely soiled by the slut whose boots you tend with your tongue. You are a factor of one. You are all holes. I currently own nothing similar, and I am not seeking to change that situation.

I'm only cataloguing my happy man.

Hen

item #0038

2010-04-29T11:30:00.003Z

I imagine hate mail. I imagine answers to my own questions which are hateful and hate-filled. I imagine, so to speak, animal, geographic metaphors, played out as a rhetoric for my desire to, as it were, popularise the primitive as I define it. I am, that is to say, seeking to enter a phase of personal intoleration and spiralling-down.

Immigrant songs extended my family. We smile as people ask people about our homeland. We smile as we become, therein and thereby, ever more private, ever more in-situ. We despise robot determinists and their version of polity; with its endless invasions on TV. We emit low howls as we reluctantly view. Vacuity is their paradigm-shift. We degenerate in opposition, relentlessly.

Glasshouse x

item #9111

2010-04-19T09:43:00.001Z

we are the self same bruts as every other site. our goal is to be able to have you in a situation which is closed to every other part of our lives.

monikas

item #0010

2010-04-18T14:07:00.002Z

[groaning] The sadist has water in his hand. His hand is enough just for one. His chair stands beside that of my father’s. (There is something loving about that gesture.) I am, as ever, unevened, the product of their endearment. In turn, I flush out their indications, with animal regard - me, the dangle, the imaginer, facing all this dependency. My very life closes his hand, and I am around him, the philosopher, like an insect. I loved how small it all was.

Die

aporia

2010-04-16T23:39:00.001Z

Humane brain weigh.

100 billion.

Neuro wire.

Some excel.

item #0881

2010-04-16T23:31:00.002Z

Truly, heavenly darling, I regard you prior, and my contributions in you are apostle and compulsive. God's auditorium is filled with body-boxes for your convenience. Some are able to give more than others. Some give anything Jesu. I am more, and lie within your right view, I think, as treasury. Your temples amount the money, USA.

130

item #0303

2010-04-13T00:12:00.003Z

I despise being with my husband, with whom I do not normally even make eye contact. We have an irregular arrangement based only upon practicalities, devoid of love. Last night I was made to post humiliating photos of my husband.

Gemma

item #0708

2010-04-13T00:08:00.001Z

Someone here... hi. I need to grow but you make me crawl

item #5555

2010-04-12T23:00:00.004Z

in out release. i sometimes clone expiry. the gods are so kind with my tragic laughing. it is written as we know. my situation points out the theory but still i theorise. your situation is different. whereas i want to get something out of what i do you constantly return, motivated in circles. chicken? egg?

omelette x

yes, i know i’m hormonal

item #8764

2010-03-30T00:26:00.002Z

i've deleted my profile. it may start again in a while or something. i write about all of the people on here who have written to me about my adventures but i need to spend more time with my brother and his sons. he split 6 months ago and is unstable, constantly phoning to poison quality time. once away from his influence i will return here.

item #0041

2010-03-27T22:15:00.004Z

Miss K, I love you. This to honour your faith in me... To my biotic dysmorp confines, I counterpart all your unreported cases, into the shallow graves of their own soiled epistemol. I must lose myself in you, as you said, and this digging is the only way I can divide as you require. See how I attend you, Miss. Please see how I time my bank of defective images, whose frequency describes the flawlessness of your rituals. Miss, your symptoms are my 15 minutes of fame.

Airbag

item #8991

2010-03-27T21:59:00.001Z

I privilege your dirty little pleasures and endow financial totalities within secure photo-less pages directed only at the professions. I can be everything when I'm away.

item #7722

2010-03-27T21:31:00.002Z

Quick update. I'm still in the firing-line, it seems. She's still hunting. And though she does not know my name or what I look like, she know everything else about me. Why? Well, I live with his loose lips. That's a fact. My life is seldom my own. So, kind readers, the story so far will logically include the following: My husband isn't interested in my reasoning, and there is no point therefore in anyone welcoming my marriage as any other kind of social activity. Unless I somehow meet someone who can improve my satisfaction I will continue in this, terminally unconvinced about the sources of his moral dominance and the world he belongs to. Yes, I am burning that bridge, also. I have to remain unapologetic about this, however, as it is an expression of some imaginative encounter I will not describe here.

I'm working myself around to listing all of this without innuendo.

Angel

item #0099

2010-03-17T00:20:00.002Z

I see redolence... An internal struggle without agency, as veteran as the punitive tilts towards canopy and coverage, as fugitive in meaning as any counter-regime and its corporeal divisions. I have erupted, like the remover, ever-broadcasting and confederated. Into Iran, I inviolate six nations, as muniment, beyond comprehension. Audiences accord, flocking to the sites from the period after 9/11.

item #8218

2010-03-17T00:01:00.004Z

To mouther... You forget yourself if you think you dissemble me without slaughter. You always do. A century (and counting) of lies. I have no thoughts perambulatory or genius. Instead, I streak across in lexicon, celibate in language, and with demonstrations of indiscipline sorely lacking elsewhere. I'm interested, but I'm not obsessed. My mind is impotent and erogenous, but not for you, more because of you.

UN Shanti

item #0306

2010-03-12T02:06:00.002Z

Today I actually know I always like to imagine him working at me silently. In general I am his only prospect. Though I am low, fortunate and terrorist, I am his regulation, endlessly uncompliant, a toilet.

Society x

item #1672

2010-02-21T04:27:00.002Z

I completed you once too often, I have been told. So now I am a bit smaller. Administrating, I might add I am pierced in both nipples but this is still unrecorded as you have informed me. Can this tract be that very record? Or am I consenting under my own name to something for which I will later become nameless? I don't really label my preferences, but I'd like clarity on at least this point, please. Katherine

item #9119

2010-02-15T22:49:00.002Z

Educate to see what happens. Love is an experiment.

Nagel (Mids)

item #8800

2010-02-15T00:11:00.002Z

I decided to come back because I am looking to meet the right person this time. I have varied my interests in order that I might keep busy and love everything I used to love plus things I hitherto could not love. I'm still very new to this, though. I tend to think of myself as curious, as strong mentally, as a let-go type. Dominion always feels like a distant ideal. Still, power for me is mostly sexual, and my fantasies are all of a sexual nature. I'm so far pretty independent and quite happy. You won't find me elsewhere here. Cog

item #0040

2010-02-14T19:57:00.002Z

To those creatures of Misophiland and, if we must, to those still further out... Rightly in our estimation, our best work is perceived to be concerned primarily with the morale of the representations we have established in the teeth, one might say, of a kind of pervasive cultural hubris. We find ourselves at-odds with this stasis. For us, it is destructive in its methods and malign in its ever-changing methodologies, which are, at any rate, based upon errors no-one but the self-interested could logically rationalise or disregard. We have, that is to say, occupied ourselves with meeting challenges to our own histo-materialist accounts - of mind, society et al; whereupon we aim to capture the hitherto allusive, hitherto subjective - and thus imponderable, unavailable and anti-social - character of personal experience itself. Our many contributions to this field of inquiry have, for us, blissfully manifested an acceptable and productive form of moral expertise. This new comfort of ours is eminently fatal, we are pleased to say. Judgment matters. Those careless of their own ignorance will of course disagree; but there it is. We await their malcontentions.

item #7007

2010-02-04T00:57:00.002Z

Quae nocent docent

item #8023

2010-02-04T00:49:00.004Z

Thing is: to teach is to please,. I am individual, a boundary. I am a foundationstone upon which at all times my good temprement and character will not tolerate any differing inclination or any other. To deal with you I will service only respect in order that you might think of me again. I'm looking for a female who wants to sex my life, on a high. Some one who is very well endowed, as a line in the sand, as a show and not tell. Let's start having sex and fun pics. No responce no pic! Emails for females. JezEffKay

item #7491

2010-02-01T00:08:00.002Z

I have one black goal: I covert your pumpkin pie. Via via ... vvv ia .... valuable paper presents, downloaded from vulnerable banks in obscure cities by nominal sleepers. YES MONEY [sic]. Stop moving ... My gang is literature-based. Our conceptual analysis is exactly that, and it is WIDE-RANGING. Our pioneering work is within a branch of phenomenology, and we are here to create applications in your direction of intentionality and disinformation. Close examination will reveal little which calls upon general perception, as you will quickly see. There is no swathe of interpretation, no retrieving, no determined explosive relevance. We are using technologies which provide best for an unpredictable essentialism. Your adoption was no coincidence. I am here for your dialogue, so to speak. I am here for your articulation. Professionals can interpret as they see fit.

item #1000

2010-01-31T23:51:00.003Z

Ma'am, as you asked, here is my opening tract:

I feel broken and I have lied. I feel that the world does not belong to me. I have dishonored my father with lust in my heart. I have no commitment. I am unholy and unrighteous. I expect that I will die and that no-one will notice or even care. My outward stance is fake. My status as educator is an aberration and a vast lie. The books I have written have added nothing to human knowledge or my own self-improvement because I have in every case chosen lazily and with knowingly poor judgment, largely as a plagiarist. I will forever allude the earthly punishments I should receive because of these lies and misdemeanors, but I know I doomed by God for my innumerable sins. Eternal life for me will entail the eternal suffering which I am due, and I accept that fate as the single instance of natural justice in my miserable life.

LOL. Coward

item #0211

2010-01-30T18:50:00.003Z

'Ears towards or as regards exploration' ... perhaps or perhaps not. I might converse here, since your stultifying lack of sense suggests I must elaborate, but I am more inclined to ridicule you. Tedious recent messenger, I disagree with you on millions of important points. We share a common language but we are worlds apart. An example: there are measurements which can be made by, what you term, safe factions. Another: aggression is not at the expense of need per se and a priori. WTF?! That's hilarious! Contacting me, as you have chosen to do, begins nothing for you personally but a direct return to the misshape of your body. Look how, in contrast, I Adonis ... stretching, I impart ... 'no-one will be welcome who isn't utterly available'. I am currently in Scotland. *Grin* Tsar

item #0041

2010-01-30T15:33:00.002Z

This is my name: Inferno. I am the immensity, if ever I participate. My disease is penetrating you. I am here, in my lady's stomach.

item #1117

2010-01-25T03:47:00.003Z

'Complex' and 'contrarian' are you? If you hated what I said so much, why contact me? Surely you'd be better off messaging those whose views you agree with? We are unalike, and I see that as a relief, personally. I've read your ideas and I find many of them aberrant and dangerous. I am no nationalist; nor am I interested in the war you say you are fighting. You are internecine, in essence; but you do not know what that means. In contrast, I see justice in everything. My own industries are extreme, but I am open-minded and entirely non-judgemental, in terms of ideology and live-and-let-live. You are uninterested in and undemanding of my analytical traits, and you see my applications in that way as so much spirited hinterland. You see friends as food-stuff. Your irksome passion is trapping you. For my part, I seek to connect, or in some sense to yearn for contemplations which are simultaneously unstinting and naturally dynamic. Please note that I arrange my own life, and that commitment is the necessary ingredient of an over-arching emotional engagement with providence itself and the references it cedes to kindness and reciprocity. No, I do not have a wish-list. I am currently UK-based, but my search is not limited to that. Kenneth

item #0050

2010-01-22T09:54:00.003Z

physical explanations without foundation are for the easily led. this for me is the anatomy of imperfection itself - an indoor game. i am here only to demonstrate this nascent fact. my human constitution demands that i at least try. here this ... you misguided and ill-equipped pedants, you rabble, i am become law. i am become ethics. i am become animal of your inefficiencies. man is an object. meanwhile, i utterly and restlessly continue. my tastes will astonish you. d1963

item #0500

2010-01-22T08:58:00.004Z

My presence here is about the sexual. I have limited my battered head to feelings of resentment and I want to begin to represent my ideas in terms of experiences and a lifestyle, taking it out, wherever and whenever. Foremost, I am a sensationalist of *the inescapable* and a liar of lies. That can appeal. I fit in. At the heart of my mission, so to speak, is something physical, for which I intend no censure, no restraint, a K Kong. Maybe this will take the form, for you, of things to achieve. I know I'm always learning. If you are an intellectual rather than a scammer of the desperate who gather here, please say hello... Trader.

item #0045

2010-01-16T20:57:00.001Z

Regardless of what I write here matter means nothing. Faced with that I can reveal my true identity. Beforehand I could be anyone. I am not a picture, I am not text. It really is that simple.

Jain

item #0016

2010-01-12T02:51:00.000Z

I tell him, I despise education. I tell him, enhancement is incapacity. I am making his decisions for him. He needs discipline and I know my true nature. So it fits, ok? It's right, ok? I've had a lifetime of quibbling over this issue. He is unable to govern me. I am able to govern him. It's just the way it is. I make demands upon him, and he is orientated. Without my attentions, he's just another in the void, flailing around looking for love and affection. I am here to ascend; and I utterly do so, via him, and via how we are together. My status is assured. Nothing here is insubstantive or relational. I'm talking about absolute, intrinsic value.

I'm sure that by now most people may believe this is fake. Ok, that was then, this is now ... I'm being discarded, and I'm back with nothing more than memories and the feeling of wasted potential. I hesitated when it mattered. My self-esteem is

I'm not a grotesque

I do not seek to negotiate
permanent power

item #7932

2010-01-09T00:11:00.001Z

hello and welcom to my profile i am just real when it is nesseary , and yes i hardly fair looking for somone to treat as a lady that nad lots of loving care , i may concidder you not shure about that one though, so if your a lady and you think you deserve my pleaseing feel free to messge me , i will always reply to messges i may even consider giveing you. im in corby uk , but i do not drive , i demand respect from every lady that replies , and i demand a full pieces on what you requiere and request of me as youres. i hope i do your part as that i will most certainly and yes most certzinly do my part. ps

item #5998

2010-01-08T23:51:00.002Z

A message for Angela (44), Hants, willing to relocate ... Hi, Kelly here. I don't think we've been properly introduced, though that didn't stop you attempting to trash my whole life in your angry comment. Anyway, for your information, my birth father wasn’t 'abusive'. He was often over-emotional, maybe even socially-stunted. He was, in fact, deaf and dumb, with other profound disabilities. In the circumstances, he did his best - can you see that, now?. He even coped with my mother's protracted illness and the suicide of my older sister, Eve. I never felt close to him in a loving way, that's true. However, I hugely respected him and still do. He may have had trouble relating to us all. But I think it was because he was too busy trying to keep things together on a practical basis. What, I ask you, is wrong with that? Neither your attentions nor your approval was sought. I did not invite you in. My discussion was not public. You muscled-in under false pretences with yout two fat feet. Be content to leave now with egg on your face. Please don't attempt to trade insults. I'll cut you to pieces. A message to Krimson Kat ... Hello to you too, and thank you for your intelligent insights. You've really made me think, I have to say. Perhaps we could chat further - maybe via messenger, or if you like I can give you a call? Anyway, my new family is building bridges now, thanks. I still can’t, as it's too little, too late, in my opinion. I'm buried in books. My motives get attention. I have an itch that is difficult to get otherwise. In your photograph you have kind eyes. K

item #3390

2010-01-04T01:15:00.001Z

i have wanted to imaginate my talents for sensitive facilitations [as management by profession asunder]. OR ... why am i here? i live quite a distance away. so it's complicated.

the occasional

item #6005

2010-01-04T01:02:00.003Z

This probably won't appeal to anyone out there, but here goes ... An intense self-destructive streak means that I'd be prepared to consent to formality itself. It follows, therefore, that I would ask you for some sign, or ideally a physical agreement, that you will not film our sessions. G

item #8800

2010-01-03T21:27:00.002Z

Why are we always looking to explore and challenge the things around us? Life is too short. I am on automatic, and the smallest things pass me by. I can bring pleasure to others if I notice you out of sensuality and control. I am only interested in carbon copied encounters ending in waiting to be told.

Remember the kiss denied.

Brutal Thomas

item #6229

2010-01-03T21:22:00.002Z

Ultimately I would like to meet someone that has the same wants....such as a mutually rewarding sex life that is more than just in a relationship as I have discovered since my 30s how much I want to experience different facets of the company of a man and need someone to spoil me rotten and if there is someone out there that would like to share with me on the outside something permanent get in touch. I am a fun loving open minded woman. Stacy

aporia .wav

2010-01-02T00:04:00.001Z

1 Site Of Scaffold
2 Slitsucker
3 Ne .Wave
4 Ostia Steve Swallow

item #6006

2010-01-01T21:39:00.002Z

I don't even think, unless you comprehend the basics of being taken out of society for periods of time, that my contact with the outside world will be determined by myself. I'm not being on the agenda, and your health and wellbeing is occasional to me. I will display other choices in due course.

FG

item #0087

2010-01-01T01:01:00.002Z

I expect him to live. There are no consequences otherwise. Still, despite knowing this, I form comments and questions which are all about victims. I got wrenched out of him, early on; like something seconded. So, I count myself as a victim, I suppose. Yes, I need choices that are right for me. No differing advancements can count as improvements if one cannot say at least something like that. I’m wondering about the bare minimum you described during our last conversation. That troubles me. I sucked your dick; but in retrospect my existence has always been about me. I took in no extra responsibility at all. The flow ebbs. When it does, I’m left in my own skin - replete, without any moments when I’m overtly frustrated. I'm only angry now because I get away with so much. It’s very simple: those waves, that wailing, the other women in my life ... Well, I very rarely present myself as one. You should know that much by now.

Charlotte

item #7023

2009-12-31T23:11:00.003Z

Due to differences I have, I have had to realise my attention is limited to whim itself. Since I last updated this profile, I've had enough warnings about it (all uninvited), that I could probably arrange passable further enhancements. For example, my legs need work, as many of you have said. I've been bogged down in other preferences, working stuff towards other conclusions. So I missed all that. You've impressed me, alright. This place is educating me. With the right person I will act as some bottom-line, yes. To those who asked, thanks for asking. Jat89

item #0004

2009-12-28T14:39:00.002Z

Out of love, I study regions which relate to developments whose results are inconsistent, but which are often replicated, by others, as if consistent. In this unvaried work, linkages I have made are never followed, and the only real, palpable phenomenon I am able to meaningfully point to indicates a general and natural disequilibrium. I am still a poor man as a direct result. Nonetheless, I have attempted to sequence these partial, flawed findings, in such a way as to at least highlight practical approaches which might yeild up a kind of causation in the end. Yes, I am poor, but I am also hopelessly romantic. P2RX7 equals XTPH1, for instance. But it does not end there. I have detected other similarly significant peaks; notably, 6q as 8q21. Consistent focus appears to infer consistency itself; but, at ever turn, and as I publicise or try to socialise what I have discovered, materials become black and their logic invisible. For myself, and because of this, I am near the end of some irreplaceable tether. Despite my applications and this being my life's work, loci replicates, on chromosome, on and on, forever, as heterogeneity; so much so that I am being implicated in the disorder itself... moreover and more exactly, hypothesis increases, and I am disorder per se.

Muffin

2009-12-23T12:02:00.003Z

Muffin died today, aged 19 years.

item #0019

2009-12-16T08:31:00.003Z

Darling, they are either the subjects of language or containers of images. They secretly want more of each. If we neglect them, they will doubtless pressure us with their neutrality or attempt to misdirect us with their nature. They will promise us anything just to feel translated.

aporia

2009-12-15T23:56:00.002Z

1. Ether, the onset dementian,
Is envisible, as surface, is seismic as contention.

2. Ether is edible, for God's sake.
Is probablised; is slake.

3. Ether is already begotten,
Now re-worked as Lydon Be Rotten.

(My car lights full beam. 'Love me...'. Then, *, in front of me. I do things. Seconds later, I do more. Onwards and on. Recollection points me. I am sessional, in my non-crisis. About abilities, I say this... fit into stuff, be strewn across the bedroom, smile-boiled, and impersonal. Open your legs. Midnight sharp I will take you.)

Paradigm One: nothing garnered but small portfolios and and and discomfort. My Body: your body. I understand and I have not forgotten but I still don't know.

item #0800

2009-12-13T17:31:00.002Z

Emails from guys are automatically blocked. So don't waste your time. I'm only here for friends and the chatroom.

Just want to express my continued admiration for my own words; especially as he, my only only, uses them upon me; like the universe all into me; like a crime against litany itself. Fuck ... I say this with pride, yet I get comments against my nature here all the time. But I am not jarred. To Mea Culpa [sic] I say in response: little feeler, your pined suggestions have no implicit right-of-way. Beautiful though my loculations are, gobshite caricature, I do love an object of community for what it brings as terminology. And to SpiritMotive0002, you emailed me just expressing future references to anyone else. WTF? I am very jealous of mankind in my own way; but, please, don't ever tell me you have any final hearing.

I cannot explain how thoughts would share me.

Post

item #5594

2009-12-13T16:35:00.002Z

i am pleased in saying that i now have a being with sol west mids 1961, yes it was very quickly but we both did knew it is right, we have the same intrestes in the world, a chance for happiness. any one should take it as it is. we see it will lead, to those that know us after spending time with us, welcome to my profile here. so first let me say my profile is not so long, as I don't seek to including my own ideas, well ok i am 46 years, live alone in south Uk, for 22 years, but I have only been since late 09. let me know if we speak. cynthian

item #9993

2009-12-13T00:15:00.002Z

Our separation was a surprise, you're wrong. Reality is all logistics for you, isn't it? I don’t know where to begin. Nothing is really enough. My family has no mother now... herds of children, lost and deposed. There is no unconditional love. There is no any which way. DNA is masochism. Reason evades everyone I've ever valued. I can see the patterns.

John

item #0024

2009-12-12T04:21:00.002Z

Anything I write here is a waste of time, amongst the obvious fakes, the judgmental, the hard-of-thinking. I'm uninterested in the half-debates I see here; and I'm uninterested in your endless administrations. You're merely policing something which no-one cares about. Such vigilance makes this place unbearable. Can I bear bones you sometime? Can I earwax you? No? Then you're clearly not the screaming delightful you say you are. Now I'm looking for random compliments. Got my pictures removed. I guess I'll just go. Andreas

item #0040

2009-12-09T05:22:00.004Z

Sally my own dearest darling, I think about the differing, plainly incompatible levels of * which exist between us, between our distinct positions, that is; and I think these alone produce your emotional meltdowns, almost as a byproduct. Just because I know this, though, doesn't mean I know what it means, nor what we can do about it. I am, by the way, perceiving these situations as a problem we need to surmount. Perhaps you think otherwise. I want a relationship, and I want that relationship to be with you. We began as acquaintances, and it's been a somewhat lazy, natural development. But, lately, as we've both agreed, things have intensified. I'm enjoying this new-found intensity; but with it comes a bit of fear - at least for me. I still want you as a friend, too - is one way of looking at it. We are, after all, best friends as well as would-be lovers. So, your latest crisis scared me - especially when you screamed 'I want off your *!' Everything paused, stopped. I became silent. I’m wondering how many more times you might say as much. Bad things... I'm frozen ... up against a wall ... unable to breathe.

item #0082

2009-12-02T00:59:00.003Z

how am i increasingly the mental male who needs to perform as an exhibitionist, especially where i suffer contradictions of needing and overcoming? my nerves order me to enjoy arousal more acutely perplexed at this contradiction. i am no better than the uninterested. such a fem as you gives an instruction to reinforce society's depraved one. set me to humiliating myself on a daily basis for bread and water. erotical situations develop my dependency via skype and cam. atm type behaviour i find intent and corrupting. i am entirely into that. i am keen on public places for this. your whim. dodo

item #6028

2009-12-01T01:09:00.002Z

I hate people who arrive unexpectedly. It's invasive. My house is never clean enough. Normally, my bedroom is full of junk, which means I’m not quite sure what to expect. People get caught up with insignificant things, I think. I spend all my time doing them anyway.

I dunno.

Allan