Dear Diary.......

1969: i say to dad: i'm tidying you up. ok, you said i would. i feel your thumb in my full hand. i stride aside. i am small. because i am young. i see only fairground. icecream. a toy. i canter. others talk. i can't listen for looking. i am small. i know. and your big thumb fills my hand. i kick my heels.
1982: i say to dad: ok i said. you're giving me a lecture on duality. your duality. you're insisting that you get the two feeling. you drag some shadow along. locked to the boot on your right foot. i'm thinking poetry. too poetry. i'm thinking. but for you, old friend, it's explanation. the street's not the place. but we've little time. so i listen. to your stereo. pitchshifter you are. i blur my ears. i have you on mp3. telling me about the twoing. the twoness. the dual.it.y. so, ok. say yourself across to me. i'm willing to understand. i need it pointing out. twice me. say in your echo. say in your stereo. in this street. and now. (anger is an energy.)
1984: guitarist available. is there anybody out there?
1989: R's frontroom. savagely gggguitarrrrringggg. atones. damagers.
1990: G adrifts.
1991: 23rd September.
1994: Freetrade Hall.
2002: Viva... oh, yes, viva that!
2004: 6th April. Lincoln. Best day, best best best